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I truly hope Allie and her family are in a better place now. I was lucky I was about to start my college program back up again in less than 2 weeks after I found out I was going to be okay, a summer job to finish, rental property to get in contact with, and friends to reconnect with and had plenty of distractions.

because that's what I was prepared for.' I didn't get to wanting it stage but I understood, all of the stories you'll hear are rightfully about the survivors. So over 2 years later when I read the part about not having a version of the plan where it wasn't cancer, I completely understood why, it a horrible disease that is far too common so on a messed up level you are more emotionally prepared to hear that diagnosis, in allies words: 'on some level, I think I was hoping for cancer. that mess of 12 days ended on august 22, on that day each year even as someone whos agnostic, thank my stars and whatever's out there I am healthy. Ya no kidding I felt too young for any of this to be happening, it was another 4 days before we got the tests back, benign (non-cancerous) breast lumps, that do nothing but scare the crap out of you and well eventually need to be removed when they get big enough, I had 4 of them in the right breast I found it in. I was 21 and too young they felt to get a mammogram unless they need a better picture. on day 6 it started feeling worse and a possibility that it was coming from another part and there might be more than 1 mass, I lost it in front of my parents that night modality had an appointment with my family doctor to have it examined from the outside and the day after that had an appointment to get an ultrasound in a clinic with the equipment. The best description I can give for the feeling that comes after that is a dark dark shadow/secret around you and your body only you know and can see, and your brain is hyper-focused on the area that is the source of the pain, for almost 5 days the stage of denial was holding on tight and I felt unable to talk about it because it would make it a reality and I would just start bawling and lose control. and my family has a history of breast cancer. I started feeling a strange pain in my right breast that wasn't on the other side, it didn't hurt a lot but was definitely enough to be noticeable Sharpe and a little bit harder than being pinched, and nothing about it was consistent I didn't move strangely, nothing had hit that part of my body hard not even the length I had felt it for or the time of day only that it was in one specific place.ДЄfter a day and a half, I did what any woman would be encouraged to do in a situation like this and do a self-breast examine, a small hard lump was in the spot on the side hurting that wasn't in the other.

HYPERBOWL AND A HALF HOW TO

'It wasn't cancer' and in particular the chart afterword's of having some kind of plan if she was diagnosed with it (fighting bravely, accomplishing goals, and a party funeral) but having a tone of question marks around it not being cancer sent me into a tidal wave of emotion I had no idea what to do with because that is the small grey cloud over my life I never knew how to describe properly.ДЇriday, Augwill go down as one of the worst days of my life because it was the start of a horrible 12 days that Allie and anyone put in this situation would remember. When I picked up the second book like most fans I knew very little about what happened and the reasons for the 7-year absence but was really excited to read new stories and catch up with her so when the serious part came I didn't hesitate much to continue the feeling of empathy and a slight fear for her talking about being in the hospital for weeks and waiting for tests to come back felt normal, the massive wave of emotion that came as a result after 3 certain words are what I wasn't prepared for.

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